Heart of Stone

I was born with a heart of stone

The hardest of hearts was all I had known
Casting off emotions that welled within
Ignoring them completely with a casual grin
I would keep friends at a distance
Building solid walls in firm resistance
No one could penetrate my heart of stone
I had then found myself cold and alone

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I worked on maintaining my wall every day
Sealing up the cracks with mortar and clay
Grounded deep and firm within my soul
With it there I had complete control
I was proud of the great shield I had built
It blinded me from any shame or guilt
Little did I know how lonely I would be
Frigid and dark my heart was within me
When I was most alone inside my heart
I began to crumble and slowly fall apart
My mortar seemed to run dry
No more patching, my wall began to die
The firm foundation started to erode
Brick by brick and load by load
The stone began to chip and break
It was then that life gave one last shake

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The wall had fallen and broken to pieces
Then I felt one of the greatest releases
I had worked so hard to build this wall
The greatest release was to see it fall
When it fell, I learned a lesson so great
Life is not built on the things I create
Importance lies in the love that I share
To show everyone that I really do care

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That moment I received something new
A heart of flesh and a crisp life view
My heart of stone had been replaced
This gave my soul a brand new taste
A soft heart ready to freely give love
A new spirit; a spirit given from above
Fresh excitement flows like a river
My thanks goes to the great gift Giver

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Ezekiel 36:26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

~ Author Unknown ~

 

Demanding Schedule

READ: Mark 1:32-39
The whole city was gathered together at the door. Then He healed many. —Mark 1:33-34

Is your life too busy? Business deadlines, productivity quotas, and shuttling children to lessons and sporting events can really fill up your schedule. It’s easy to think, If only I didn’t have so many responsibilities, then I could walk in vital union with God.

Yet C. S. Lewis wisely points out that no one was busier than Christ. “Our model is the Jesus . . . of the workshop, the roads, the crowds, the clamorous demands and surly oppositions, the lack of all peace and privacy, the interruptions. For this . . . is the Divine life operating under human conditions.”

We read of Jesus in Capernaum: “At evening, when the sun had set, they brought to Him all who were sick and those who were demon-possessed. And the whole city was gathered together at the door. Then He healed many” (Mark 1:32-34). The next day Christ sought out a solitary place and prayed. There He received direction from His Father to pursue a demanding ministry in another place. Our Lord communed with His Father and depended on the Spirit to minister through Him.

Is your schedule demanding? Follow the example of Jesus and set aside a specific time for prayer. Then depend upon God’s power to help you meet each day’s demands. — Dennis Fisher

The many tasks we face each day
Can burden and oppress,
But spending time with God each day
Can bring relief from stress. —Sper

 

@*** Pernahkah Kamu Menyesal Mengenal Seseorang @***

Seperti  judulnya; pernahkah kamu menyesal  mengenal seseorang ? beberapa hari topik ini menjadi statusku di Facebook, dan ternyata setelah disurvei, lebih banyak orang bilang  “ Pernah “. Akan tetapi bagaimana mereka menyikapi hal tersebut ? Kebanyakan dari mereka bilang, ada yang akhirnya kecewa, kesal dan menyesali, tapi hal itu tidak membuat mereka tetap meningat-ingat hal tersebut, sebagian ornag berkata , itu menjadi sesuatu hal baru yang bisa dijadikan pelajaran, dan menjadi sebagai acuan tuk bisa lebih jelih dan berhati-hati .

Well, aku rasa ada benarnya juga apa yang mereka katakan dan tidak perlu membuang-buang waktu dan tenaga untuk memikirkan hal sepele sepeti itu. Mungkin bagi beberapa orang hal ini sepele karena permasalahannya tidak begitu ribet dan merugikan, tapi ada juga menjadikannya sebagai masalah yang sangat rumit dan merugikan bagi dia. Setiap masalah emang berbeda bagi setiap orang, tergantung bagaimana seseorang itu menyikapi sebuah masalah supaya tidak menjadi seuatu hal yang sangat ribet dan menjadi semakin keruh. Bahkan ada juga yang terlalu memikirkannya sehingga merasa seperti tidak pernah lepas dari ikatan masalah tersebut dan akhirnya menjadi putus asa  dan sangat membenci orang yang pernah dia kenal tersebut

Setiap orang memiliki karakter yang berbeda-beda, ada yang pendiam,sensitive, pemarah, emosian, sabar  lemah lembut dan ada juga orang yang cuek dan gak mau pusing akan masalah apapun.

@ Pendiam dan Sensitive

Nah biasanya orang yang pendiam, sensitive  ini sangat susah melupakan masalah yang menyakiti hatinya, dan orang lainpun akan susah untuk memahami sifat yang seperti ini, kebanyakan ornag seperti ini lebih sering mendam perasaannya, dan akhirnya ketika suatu saat sudah tidak tahan lagi baru dech meledak dan keluar emosi-nya. Aku rasa sifat dan karakter yang seperti ini  sangat merugikan diri sendiri, s’bab orang lain susah  memahami apa yang sedang dia rasakan dan pikirkan. Hanya orang-orang yang memiliki pengertian yang bisa bertahan bersahabat dengan  orang seperti ini.

@ Pemarah & Emosian

Sementara karakter seorang pemarah ini sebenarnya gak jauh beda dengan orang yang sesnsitive, mudah marah, kalo tidak suka. Ada dua kemungkin yang perlu di perhatikan dari seseorang yang berkarakter pemarah ini, bisa jadi dia marah hanya sebentar saja dan kemudian sudah puas dan melupakannya apabila dia sudah meluapkan rasa emosi dan amarahnya. Kemungkin satu lage, bisa juga seorang pemarah dan sekaligus juga menyimpan dendam, karakter ini biasanya paling berbahaya.MEski sudah meluapkan rasa emosi dan amarahnya akan tetapi masih menyimpan rasa dendam dihati, dan kita tidak pernah tau suatu saat dia akan membalaskan rasa dendamnya.

@ Penyabar, lemah lembut dan penyayang

Nah orang yang seperti ini  mungkin tidak begitu banyak lage di dunia hehehe 😀  tapi  jangan takut seseorang bisa berubah koq, dari yg pemarah dan emosian juga bisa berubah jadi orang yang sabar dan lemah lembut dan penyanyang, sesgala sesuatu bisa berubah seiring dengan dengan waktu. Orang yang sabar lemah lembut dan penyanyang ini basanya selalu sabar dan tenang dalam menghadapi  situasi apapun persoalan hidupnya. Tidak pernah berpikir terlalu jauh sebelum sesuatu itu benar-benar terjadi, jadi semua masalah disikapi dengan tenang, dan bagi mereka semuanya akan baik-baik saja. Waduh..kalo berada dekat orang-orang seperti ini mungkin akan berasa nyaman banget ya hehhee.. 😀

Oops.. tapi jangan salah lho, orang sabar dan lemah lembut juga pasti ada batas kesabaran dan kelemah lembutannya lho 😀 gak selama-nya juga kale… :-p , karena dia juga manusia biasa juga yang suatu saat juga bisa berubah dari hati yg selembut sutera dan hati yang sekeras batu heheh 😀 mungkin kecuali kalo dia sudah berubah jadi malaikat baru dech  kita bisa yakin 100 %  hehhehehhe  😀 so, tidak selamanya orang sabar dan lemah lembut itu nyaman untuk dijadikan jadi temen dekat ato seseorang yang special di hati kita.

 

The Lesson from a Donkey

One day a farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn’t worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.
At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly.. Then, to everyone’s amazement he quietened down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer’s  neighbours  continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.
Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL :
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt.The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up.
Each of our troubles is a stepping stone.  We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up!
Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred – Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries – Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Take responsibility for your life.

You have two choices…smile and close this page, or pass this along to someone else to share the lesson !!
Enjoy Life & Stay Happy

God Bless!

 

Teringat akan masa kecilku

Aku teringat akan masa kecilku,  banyak hal-hal yang lucu dalam hidupku, dikala itu usia ku masih sangat belia dan sangat polos hehehehe  😀 .

Dulu waktu kecil aku terlalu banyak cita-cita, dan papa selalu bilang bermimpilah, bertekun dan berjuanglah maka mimpimu itu akan menjadi kenyataan kalo kamu tidak pernah mau menyerah untuk menggapai mimpimu itu.

Yeah..terlalu banyak mimpiku tapi satu saja mimpi yang paling utama ingin kucapai ketika aku masih kecil, aku ingin bisa keliling dunia, kalo kata bu guru dulu disekolah bumi ini bulat dan aku ingin banget melihat dan membuktikannya, apakah benar-benar bumi ini bulat hehehehe lucu ya 😀

Mungkin karena dulu aku sangat polos, apa di yang dikatakan guru ketika masih duduk dibangku SD aku selalu membayangkannya di dalam pikiranku dan ingin membuktikannya, wah..ternyata dolo aku itu seorang anak yang banyak mikir hehehehehe 😀

Sekarang setelah aku sudah menjadi dewasa, setiap kali aku mengingat mimpi-mimpiku dimasa kecil, terkadang aku suka tertawa sendiri, aaah..betapa lucu dan polosnya dulu aku…hahahahaha 😀

Tapi tak dipungkiri, mungkin kalo dolo semasa kecil aku tidak pernah bermimpi dan memiliki cita-cita yang tinggi, mungkin aku tidak akan seperti saat ini. Thanks God, aku sudah bisa mewujudkan sebagian dari mimpi-mimpiku itu menjadi kenyataan, meski masih banyak seh yang blom tercapai hehehe 😀

Yeah, mungkin tidak semua mimpi itu harus kenyataan, ato juga mungkin semua mimpiku akan menjadi kenyataan akan tetapi aku harus menunggu lama dan bersabar..  🙂

Baiklah..akan ku perjuangan semuanya demi menggapai mimpi-mimpiku, tetapi untuk menjadi seorang penemu dan membuktikan bumi ini bulat, kayakna itu cukup hanya mimpi dimasa kanak-kanak aza..hehehe  😀

Wah..ditengah-tengah ngantuk begini aku masih bisa menulis buku diary ku ini hehehe 😀  betapa ngantuknya seharian ini, tidak bisa konsen dengan kerjaan, dan sedikit kepalaku pusing jadina emang paling tepat kalo nulisin buku diary begini.

 

Too…..:)

Too often we don’t realize
what we have until it is gone
Too often we wait too late to say
I’m sorry I was wrong
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
And we allow foolish things
to tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let
unimportant things into our minds
And then it’s usually too late
to see what made us blind

So be sure that you let people know
how much they mean to you
Take that time to say the words
before your time is through

Be sure that you appreciate
everything you’ve got
And be thankful for the little things
in life that mean alot.

 

@___**Broken Dreams**___@

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As children bring
their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams
to God
because He was my friend!

But then instead
of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around
and tried to help
with ways
that were my own.

At last I snatched them back
and cried,
“How can you be so slow?”
“My child,” He said
“What could I do?
You never did let go.”

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[Author Unknown]

 

Busy with my deadline

Sudah beberapa hari ini pulang malam terus karena aku harus kejar deadline, berhubung tanggal penyampaian SPT Tahunan Badan tinggal beberapa hari lage, jadi begini dech, blom lage laporan gue yang masih blom kelar-kelar karena menunggu data-data yang masih outstanding. Hm..hm..aku paling gak suka kerja dengan last minutes begini, semuanya terburu-buru dan membuat aku tidak bisa konsentrasi penuh dan mengecek dengan baik, takut aza seh entar ada data yang missing.

Oh God, tolong ajari dan bimbinglah hambahmu ini untuk melakukan semua tugas dan tanggung jawabku dengan baik dan tepat  waktu. Tinggal hari ini dan besok si babe ada disini, jadi aku harus bisa selesaikan sebelom dia berangkat, karena dia harus menandatangi seluruhnya sebelum dia pulang ke negaranya tuk liburan.

Semoga setelah laporan ini kelar, aku bisa konsen dengan kerjaan yang lain, dan bisa bekerja dengan nyaman dan tanpa harus serba terburu-buru. Masih banyak pekerjaan yang lain yang menunggu, pekerjaan rutin setiap bulan juga masih blom dikerjakan, karena focus dengan satu pekerjaan ini. Smoga semuanya aku bisa kerjakan dengan baik dan tepat waktu tanpa buru-buru lage.

Tuhan berikan aku kekuatan, kesehatan dan konsentrasi agar aku bisa melakukan semua tugas-tugas dengan baik. AMEN

 

@__*** He Giveth More Grace ***__@

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He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labors increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercy;
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed ere the day is half done,
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources,
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

Fear not that thy need shall exceed His provision,
Our God ever yearns His resources to share;
Lean hard on the arm everlasting, availing;
The Father both thee and thy load will upbear.

His love has no limit; His grace has no measure.
His pow’r has no boundary known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus,
He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again!

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[ By ; Annie Johnson Flint ]

 

♥♥____ The Doll and The Rose ____♥♥

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I was walking around in a store. I saw a
cashier hand this little boy his money back saying
“I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy
this doll.”

Then the little boy turned to the old woman
next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have
enough money?”

The old lady replied: ”You know that you
don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.”

Then she asked him to stay there for 5
minutes while she went to look around. She left
quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in
his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him
who he wished to give this doll to.

“It’s the doll that my sister loved most and
wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa
Claus would bring it to her.”

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will
bring it to her after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus
can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to
give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to
my sister when she goes there.”

His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My
sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that
Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I
thought that she could take the doll with her to
give it to my sister.”

My heart nearly stopped .

The little boy looked up at me and said: “I
told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her
to wait until I come back from the mall.”

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him
where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy
to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me.”

“I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have
to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be
with my little sister.”

Then he looked again at the doll with sad
eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to
the boy. “What if we checked again, just in case you
do have enough money?”

“Ok” he said “I hope that I have enough.” I
added some of my money to his without him seeing and
we started to count it. There was enough for the
doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: “Thank you God for
giving me enough money!”

Then he looked at me and added “I asked
yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have
enough money to buy this doll so that mommy can give
it to my sister. He heard me!”

“I also wanted to have enough money to buy a
white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask
God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the
doll and a white rose.”

“My mommy loves white roses.”

A few minutes later, the old lady came again
and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally
different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little
boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article
2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck, who hit
a car, where there was one young lady and a little
girl.

The little girl died right away, and the
mother was left in a critical state. The family had
to decide whether to pull the plug on the
life-assisting machine, because the young lady would
not be able to recover from the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the
little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young
lady had passed away.

I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch
of white roses and I went to the funeral home where
the body of the young woman was exposed for people
to see and make last wishes before burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a
beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of
the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.
I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that
my life had been changed forever. The love that this
little boy had for his mother and his sister is
still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a
fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all
this away from him.

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